I’ve been planning to do this for a while. I did a few blog posts last year and the year before that, mostly clarifying some thoughts for myself while I sought a new direction for my life. Funny (or not, really) that I’m again (still?) dealing with the same questions.
The most pressing and persistent — painful, even, to prolong the alliteration — issue for me is finding the right job. I sketched out a 3-step goal for financial independence a year ago, and a job is only a small part of it, but I continue to search for a role that will be somewhat fulfilling, with at least a measure of purpose, which makes use of my abilities and truly challenges me. I haven’t read Your Money or Your Life yet (it has been recommended byseveral people whose opinions I value, and is on my list to get to soon), but I’ve skimmed enough to understand the concept of “making a dying.” Dad, too, has repeatedly stressed to me the value of my time and my life’s energy. Surely it is worth more than what I am being compensated for by NOT being able to even approach my potential at my current job. Surely.
So I’ve studied finance. I’ve studied real estate. I earned a paralegal certificate. I’ve continued to develop my writing. I have become a hell of a networker. And, most importantly, I’ve learned a few very important things about myself.
Turns out I really do like accounting, and organization, and research, and I’m good at those things. I am thrilled by being productive. I kind of like working by myself, but do like to be around people. I’ve faced the fact that I need to feel some importance related to my role, whatever it may be.
Where I’m working now only partially satisfies — and too often frustrates — the goals I’ve identified as vital to me. Admittedly, where I am now was not intended to be my dream job, and it is better financially than my previous position. But there is, I honestly believe, a better fit for me out there. And I am determined to find it. Soon.